It’s a lot change all at once, but its been sweet to step into all that comes with the discomfort and excitement of that change.
“Wow.” This is the only word I can find to describe these past two weeks and this transition. While I have been having such a sweet time here, I want to be honest in how this transition and change has been difficult for me. I have felt the whole spectrum of emotion from excitement, to joy, to grief, discomfort and you name it. Stepping away from almost every comfort I have been accustomed to or clung to in a moment of sadness has been and will be difficult to navigate. Although, it has been sweet to seek comfort from the Lord because there is nowhere else to run to. I am being stretched to be vulnerable with not only the people around me, but with myself and the Lord as well. Something I am challenging myself in right now-is to give myself the freedom to feel. Taking away any judgement or expectation towards my feelings. Asking the Lord to reveal ares of my life that He has been begging me to give to Him, and stepping into the discomfort with Him. I miss my relationships back home already, but can already see such a sweet work being done in me. I am learning to one, seek to be whole with the Lord and finding my identity in only who He says I am. That I do not need to be everything to everyone and that I will not always be able to meet the needs of the people around me. How to let people in and learn from people who process and see the world differently than me.
The Lord is asking me to step in, be bold and to set with the difficult questions. I am learning what it looks like to lead without expectation, to shed the fear of not being desired and to discern the voice of the Lord! It’s going to be a sweet journey…and I’m excited to see how this stretch in being obedient challenges me as the months continue.
So proud of you ken!! Love you.
Love your vulnerability in sharing your heart with us!
And you rock as a TL!!!